[CON] here comes goodbye.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor nodded. Not Christy. He followed him in and looked at the sleeping girl. He sat down, reaching to brush her light hair from her face, smiling. He muffled a cough in his arm, drawing in a faint breath. "I'm s-sure there's sometime willing to don-nate."

[perseus james rudman]

Perseus shrugged, sending his brother a text to come over. He put the phone on the dresser then walked to the bathroom, swallowing a couple other pills. He walked out of the bathroom, sitting on the floor with his head on his knees. "I wish I didn't have a clot.. She wouldn't have to look for someone cause I could do it." He mumbled, trying not to cry.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor bit his lip, sliding down next to him, a wing and arm draping around him. He hugged him close. "I-It's okay. We'll f-find someone." Fingers traced his arm slowly, and he heard Christy whimper on the bed, moving around before falling silent again.

[perseus james rudman]

Perseus leaned gently on him, afraid to hurt the boy. He looked over at the little girl, hoping she wasn't in pain. He knew how bad the pain could be around here. Probably a lot worse with something physical like her and Connor's. "I told Deacon to come over. See if he's found anyone." He said quietly, reaching over for Connor's hand.

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor nodded, hoping things wouldn't be too tense. He took the older male's hand, closing his eyes as he scooted a little closer than before. He was leveled out nicely now, straight in the head. His left arm was starting to sting, the cut all the way up to his elbow. But it had stopped bleeding so he wasn't worried.

[perseus james rudman]

Perseus squeezed his hand gently, looking towards the door as his brother knocked. "Come in." He called, looking away so he wouldn't have to see the look on his brother's face. And soon enough he heard his brother's snort of laughter.

"Really, PJ?" He asked, sitting down across the room.

"It's none of your business." Perseus said quietly, playing with Connor's fingers.

"Fuck a whore. I don't care. Why'd you ask me here?"

Perseus gritted his teeth, looking over at Deacon. "That's low. Even for you. And I wanted to know if you found anyone for Bandit." Deacon shook his head, fishing in his pockets for his cigarettes.

"No. Jordan's supposed to be on his way here though."

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor swallowed, wincing at Deacon's words. He couldn't help the hurt, the self humiliation. It was true, wasn't it? He was just so lonely..
He pulled away, wings pulling close, arms folding in his lap as he worked his jaw and fixed his eyes on his hands, not bothering look at either of them. Maybe he should leave..
He jumped as the door opened again and Jordan walked in, Christy starting to cry.
He got up shakily, but just the struggle of picking her up was evident, and he moved to the corner of the room, curling up with her in his lap as he coughed.

[perseus james rudman]

Perseus watched Connor sit away from them and frowned. "You always ruin everything, Deacon." He mumbled, a lump in his throat. He felt like he was always doing something wrong when it came to his brother. "You lied to me. You always told me I shouldn't be gay and then you go an- you're a fucking hypocrite."

"I didn't lie. I just didn't tell the truth." Deacon said, shrugging his shoulders. Perseus glared at him, clenching his teeth together. "I wanted to save you from the hurt."

"No. You're a selfish prick who doesn't care about anyone but himself. It's my turn to be happy." Perseus told him flatly.

"That's pretty low standards for happy, bro."

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor drew in a shaky breath, trying not to listen. Teeth gritted, tears falling until his hands fisted. He set a sobbing Christy down and Jodan was quick to move across the room and scoop her close, humming.
"You f-fucking bastard." Connor huffed. "You're j-just as low as I a-am. What, did y-you get married just to h-have a kid?" He threw a blade at him from his pocket, then cigarettes, and his lighter, anything he could. "I'm f-fucking tr-rying! You aren't a l-lab rat every day! You aren't b-beaten for batting an eyelash wrong! You-"
Connor gagged, careening forward, head striking the floor. He groaned, dazed, feather fluttering from his crumpled figured as he squirmed in pain. Christy was screaming for him and he hid his face, sobbing.

[perseus james rudman]

"I was never married, smart ass. I'm not going to sit here and let you think you're some high and mighty person when you're-"

"Just SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Perseus screamed, tears falling down his cheeks. "You're so much better than us, oh holy one! You just live with a woman for ten fucking years and never tell her you love her! Do you tell him you love him?" He asked, pointing to Jordan. "No. Because you can't love. You're a selfish bastard! If you don't benefit from it, you don't fucking care!"

"Don't drag Jordan into this. He's none of your concern." Deacon said defensively.

"Why? You're fucking him? That makes sense. Can't get a kid out of him. While you keep your brother on a leash, making him think what he likes is wrong."

"When you like THAT, yeah, it is wrong!"

"YOU LIKED THAT TOO, RUDMAN!" Perseus screamed even louder. Deacon turned pale, shaking his head. "Don't shake your head at me, you asshole. You're a lying sorry excuse for a human. Why's he even want you, anyways? You don't lie. You just don't tell the truth, right? You're a judgemental bastard."

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor held his head, panting. The screaming driving him into a panic. He listened to them, looking blearily over at a clearly hurt Jordan, who had his eyebrows furrowed. Christy was still whimpering in his arms and he finally mumbled that he would take her to get medicine and be back.
Connor rolled onto his side. The two were fighting about him now. Was it all his fault?
Wings spread as he rolled to his back, chest arching. But that strike to the head had been enough to drive him into a seizure.

[perseus james rudman]

"You're awful." Perseus spat, crawling over to Connor. He pulled his head into his lap, gently running his fingers through his hair. He was sobbing now. He felt bad for fighting, for dragging everyone into this. And he knew it wouldn't make anything better. "I'm sorry.." He told Connor quietly. "There's nothing wrong with you. He doesn't get it.."

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor gagged, twitching in Perseus' arms until he stilled, then jerked and rolled over, dry heaving. He shrank back feebly, but gave up finally and rested his head in the older male's lap, shaking. "E-rverything's..wrong woth m-me.." He slurred huskily, eyes closing. He wasn't sure how long her laid there before Jordan came back, silently setting Christy on thebed.

[perseus james rudman]

"Nothing that can't be fixed." Perseus told him quietly, gently running his hand over the boy's chest. He didn't want him to leave. He wanted for Connor to stay here like he did a few nights ago. He looked over as Jordan walked in, his brother walking up to him to wrap his arms around him and whisper in his ear. Perseus just looked away, leaning down to kiss Jordan's forehead. "Please don't leave me.."

[connor crayze sykes]

Connor shook his head slowy, but didn't argue. He reachedup at the fresh blood trickling from his nose. "F-fuck." Pinching it, he focused on the hand over his shuddering chest, just closing his eyes at the words. But not after watching Jordan tense uneasily in the arms, startled from Deacon's previous anger.